8 Things I’m Looking Forward To:
1. moving into my apartment tomorrow.
2. being done with finals.
3. sascha coming to visit in june!
4. pride '09.
5. getting a job, and making moniezzz.
6. geoff and lana's wedding.
7. summer with my new roommates.
8. finishing (and printing) my zine.

8 Things I did yesterday:
1. got only 3 hours of sleep.
2. took yazmin's dog on a walk at 8am.
3. dog-sat for said dog.
4. did some drafting for my construction documents final.
5. talked to my parents.
6. napped for an hour.
7. began re-reading the perks of being a wallflower.
8. played with zena's new kitten, rigby.

8 Things I Wish I could do:
1. stop trying to find shortcuts to everything.
2. date more.
3. finish my construction documents final before monday.
4. draw the human figure. well, draw it nicely.
5. learn better time management techniques.
6. adventure/explore every day of my life.
7. watch the entire sex and the city series within a week.
8. save my money.

8 Shows I Watch: (on Hulu or YouTube)
1. fringe.
2. family guy.
3. grey's anatomy.
4. the l word.
5. america's next top model (if i'm super bored).
6. the duel 2.
7. i've stopped watching as much tv since i've been here.
8. ...

i like how ridiculous my twitter is. i use twitter much differently than most. feel free to stop following me (as some of you already have), since i know i probably bomb your page with crap. whoops.

i have secluded myself from the internet, and the websites i used to frequent. the only reason i'm even posting this is to ask HOW ARE YOU? also, does anyone use aim/skype?

still high off her fumes.

i have been reading quotes on tumblr all day. it's been a while since i've found new quotes to love. i've been using my paper journal more, and some of these quotes are screaming to be put to a blank page.





i'm leaving for sf at 8am. i'm hopeful for a great semester.

SO..

last night i made a vlog in response to some questions from theexits. i've been trying to upload it since then, and no luck. i compressed the file down to 250mb, and finally was able to upload it on vimeo. except now, my voice is off from the video. (THAT IS SUCH A HUGE PET PEEVE OF MINE!)

any clue on how to fix this?

i hope everyone has a great christmas! :)

this is so awesome.

i'm willing to trade for a book or dvd. or even take $4 for one (including s&h). they're all random, some are my first cd's, and others i bought a few months ago. ASK FOR SOME.

Ben Folds Five - Forever and Ever, Amen
Blood Brothers - Crimes
Brandston - Control
Bury Your Dead - Alive (cd/dvd)
Die Trying - Die Trying
Evanescence - Fallen
Garbage - Bleed Like Me
Green Day - International Superhits
Hoobastank - Hoobastank
Idiot Pilot - Strange We Should Meet Here
It Dies Today - The Caitiff Choir
Jewel - Pieces of Me
Jewel - Spirit
Kelly Clarkson - Breakaway
Monica - The Boy Is Mine
No Doubt - Rock Steady
Queen - Greatest Hits
Reubens Accomplice - The Bull, The Balloon, and the Family
Sarah McLachlan - Surfacing
Simple Plan - No Pads, No Helmets... Just Balls
System of a Down - Steal This Album!
The Academy Is... - Almost Here
The Ataris - So Long, Astoria
The Mars Volta - Frances the Mute
The Used - The Used
Toni Braxton - Secrets
Toni Braxton - Toni Braxton
Various Artists - A Near Fatal Fall (Emery, Underoath, Dead Poetic, Watashi Wa, Demon Hunter, etc)
Various Artists - A Tribute to Ramones
Various Artists - Atticus... Dragging the Lake 2
Various Artists - Center Stage OST
Various Artists - Chicago OST
Various Artists - Energy Muzik (Horse the band, nural, silverstein, glass casket, etc.)
Various Artists - Give, Listen, Help (Feist, Cat Power, Kaiser Chiefs, Chris Walla, etc)
Various Artists - The Anti-Pop Sampler (Walls of Jericho, Unsung Zeroes, Evergreen Terrace, Calico System, etc.)
Various Artists - Warped Tour '05 Compilation
Whitney Houston - My Love Is Your Love

"we become what we think about most of the time." - earl nightingale.
or, in simpler terms, you are who you hang out with.

my cat is the best. even though lately he eats my posters that i have on the bottom of my door in attempt to wake me, he is still my favorite. thursday night, i accidentally left him in the garage though!$@# i guess he peed and pooped everywhere, according to my mom. : / MY BAD. but yeah, once he came in he was being so damn cute.

( LOOK )

1. Go to Career Cruising, www.careercruising.com
2. Put in Username: nycareers and Password: landmark.
3. Take their "Career Matchmaker" questions.
4. Post the results
5. Put the careers you have seriously considered in italics, and the careers in which you have worked/do work in bold.

1. Career Counselor
2. Child and Youth Worker
3. Director of Photography
4. Funeral Director
5. Adoption Counselor
6. Director
7. Social Worker
8. Addictions Counselor
9. Set Designer (this is what i want to obtain with my interior design degree, for the most part. it is my ultimate dream/goal.)
10. Costume Designer
11. Clergy
12. Psychologist
13. Motivational Speaker (i'm pretty sure i suck at making people feel better)
14. Art / Music Therapist
15. Sport Psychology Consultant
16. Website Designer (i did this for like, six years? obviously not on a professional level, but i still did it. haha)
17. Customer Service Representative (i wouldn't mind....)
18. Special Effects Technician
19. Actor
20. Desktop Publisher
21. Librarian (HOW FUN WOULD THAT BE?)
22. Editor (editor of a magazine!!$#%)
23. Tour Guide (uhh...)
24. Foreign Service Officer
25. Animator
26. Gerontologist
27. Cartoonist / Comic Illustrator
28. Computer Network Specialist
29. Fashion Designer (this went along with the costume design thing..)
30. Special Education Teacher
31. Dental Assistant (this is greg's job, not mine)
32. Craftsperson
33. Potter
34. High School Teacher
35. Elementary School Teacher
36. Teacher Assistant
37. Early Childhood Educator
38. Multimedia Developer
39. Professor
40. Anthropologist

sucky sucky long time that interior designer wasn't on there!

"At the end of the day, there are some things you just can't help but talk about. Some things we just don't want to hear, and some things we say because we can't be silent any longer. Some things are more than what you say, they're what you do. Some things you say cause there's no other choice. Some things you keep to yourself. And not too often, but every now and then, some things simply speak for themselves." - Dr. Meredith Grey

"Never stop writing. You write so beautifully."
Thanks Ms. Mora. Now if only you were my actual teacher instead of Ms. Stute. ick!
Well, either way!!! I AM DONE WITH HIGH SCHOOL. CHECK OUT WAS SO QUICK AND EASY. my godddddddddd. Oh man, I couldn't stop smiling as Susie was checking me out. AHHHHHH. this is so exciting, but at the same time it hasn't really hit me yet. I'm so amped for Monday's trip and Graduation/Grad Night on Wednesday. :D :D :D

( it takes no matches to give me a spark )

graduation, smiling, laughing, the smell of sweet sweat, excessive picture taking, days spent doing nothing, basketball shorts, freshly shaven legs, the bullet, thinking about new things i should do, attempting to widen my vocabulary, People, Domino, making recipes from my new cookbooks, fresh mats in my car, the scent of potpurri in my car, sleeping on top of my comforter, looking at dresses online, memories i am making, planning my graduation party, bowling, having things spilled on me, my friends catching me when i exaggerate or make up a story, planning my future, breathing in the chilly air at night and waking up to the warm sun.

When we hear that song, we will dance
When we're with all our friends, we will drink and laugh
When we're driving in our cars, we will sing
If you're lost and you look, you will find me
But what I couldn't do is figure out how you
You jumped into my heart, now I couldn't start
To think of life without you, my world would stop
And fall down again, all black and blue again
I want to know everything about you
What makes you feel alive?
And I want to know everything that you do
So let's drive through the night
When you showed me your world, I just smiled
And when I sit with you now, I can remember
That when we forget about everything that hurts us
How lovely the world seems to be
'Cause nothing can hurt us
And like a Wilson Bentley found on black velvet
A beauty so strange, something he didn't expect
It's a unique find that only some people get
And you are mine
'Cause I want to know everything about you
What makes you feel alive?
And I want to know everything that you do
So let's drive through the night
Put your hands on my heart
Spray paint verses on a cool blue wall
Write our names in the burning sand
Watch as snowflakes melt inside our hands
'Cause I want to know everything about you
What makes you feel alive?
And I want to know everything that you do
So let's drive through the night

i think sometimes you need to stop focusing on yourself so much. take a step back and look around. ask the person next to you how they're doing.

i rarely (if ever) want to live in a movie. but shit, this was just too good to be true.