Most of my entries here on LJ are friends only. I will add mostly everyone who adds me, so go for it. However, I can't promise super exciting entries. I use LJ as a platform to vent about personal issues. Sometimes (and really only sometimes) I post paper journal entries, zines, and other misc. photos.

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 it makes me so fucking sick every time her name, or the idea of her, is brought up. i wish i had some kind of control over it. i have a bad feeling about her, and i wish she would stay gone forever.

I've asked nicely for a long, LONG time now. And it's about time I give you a proper reaction. Watch me. You WILL stop.

Oh, after re-reading this I realize it may be taken as some kind of creepy threat. It's not, I swear. Just me deciding that I'm going to let my actions speak way louder than my words that are falling upon deaf ears.

I've already started working on my new issue of my zine.

If I owe you a copy of my last issue (The Greatest of Heights #1) let me know. I have a bad habit of forgetting these kind of things.

somehow, midterms encroached upon me without notice. i worked for 14 hours on my color and design midterm project today. i'm really pleased with the turnout so far, although i am not completely done. i took step-by-step photos 'cus i'm a huge nerd like that.

this is a self-portrait color study we did. basically, we have to create different values of color using only 2 complementary colors. a few weeks ago, we had to bring in a bunch of different self-portaits, then we had to pick one and do two roughs: one with cool lighting, the other with warm lighting. we had a critique in class, and no one could guess what colors i used (brilliant yellow and ultramarine). everyone agreed the warm lighting look best, so here it goes: ( step by step, day by day... )

it's so annoying to stare at a photo of yourself for that long, lemme tell ya! i also noticed after i cleaned out my paint pallette that i did a crappy job of painting the darkest color, so i need to re-mix/fix that.

I NEED YOUR OPINION. see that line under my bottom lip? does it look okay? my teacher said i needed to make my lips pop more.. but i wasn't sure how. and every time i look at it, all i can think is CHOLAAAAA (a female mexican 'gangster'). should i keep it, or fix that as well?

does anyone want to be pen pals?

i'm not sure what happened, but i've stopped writing to all the ones i had. :( currently, i only have one.. and i need to write her back tonight. there is just a lot that i want to say/ask/talk about, and i feel like a 'stranger' would appreciate it more.

i finally have wifi in my apartment! this could possibly mean that i'll be posting on here more. i was wondering, do any of you use blogspot? i have a blog over there, and am considering just sticking with that instead of livejournal. i'm unsure though. i hope to keep in contact with my friends a bit better now that i have wifi (nina, this means you!) this weekend the zine fest is coming up.. i'm trying to find someone to go with me since taylor is working (and she's the only one i imagine being even remotely interested). i also have a interview tomorrow at lush.. i'm kind of nervous since their way of interviewing is to put you on the floor right away to see how you work. i'm pretty good in a retail environment.. i'm just nervous to not get the job ('cus i need one so bad right now).

i'm super stoked for school to start. i've been thinking a lot about tattoos. i want a half sleeve on my right arm, but i'm kind of confused as to how to "start" a sleeve. do i get the entire design outline done in a few sittings, or do i gradually add pieces over the years? hm. i know for sure i want to incorporate starry night into it. i even considered having my entire sleeve be the painting.. but i just don't know if i could ever afford that.

hope everyone is doing well. xoxo

i have a slew of zines that i am willing to trade/sell. ( take a look: )

i'm already working on another zine.. which is going to be a collection of photos i've taken on my phone.

finally have a bed, and a desk. this means i can finally get back to my hobbies, and doing things i love.

i'm about halfway through my zine, and although i have enough stuff to fill the rest of it.. i am curious to know what your favorite things are to read in zines (or magazines/newspapers for those of you not into zines)? i always wonder..

8 Things I’m Looking Forward To:
1. moving into my apartment tomorrow.
2. being done with finals.
3. sascha coming to visit in june!
4. pride '09.
5. getting a job, and making moniezzz.
6. geoff and lana's wedding.
7. summer with my new roommates.
8. finishing (and printing) my zine.

8 Things I did yesterday:
1. got only 3 hours of sleep.
2. took yazmin's dog on a walk at 8am.
3. dog-sat for said dog.
4. did some drafting for my construction documents final.
5. talked to my parents.
6. napped for an hour.
7. began re-reading the perks of being a wallflower.
8. played with zena's new kitten, rigby.

8 Things I Wish I could do:
1. stop trying to find shortcuts to everything.
2. date more.
3. finish my construction documents final before monday.
4. draw the human figure. well, draw it nicely.
5. learn better time management techniques.
6. adventure/explore every day of my life.
7. watch the entire sex and the city series within a week.
8. save my money.

8 Shows I Watch: (on Hulu or YouTube)
1. fringe.
2. family guy.
3. grey's anatomy.
4. the l word.
5. america's next top model (if i'm super bored).
6. the duel 2.
7. i've stopped watching as much tv since i've been here.
8. ...